I started to notice how miserable I was making myself in the moment, and all the future doomsday scenarios I was creating. Once I woke up to this fact and realized that it was just fear, I quickly changed my mindset to “Can I deal with this moment? and this moment, and this moment?” I stayed in each moment, instead of making up stories about how horrible the day would be. When we began rafting, I felt my body tense up, resisting the water being pelted at me, and fear I would be thrown out of the boat. (The safety instructions can be scary!) Once I realized this, I started breathing consciously and relaxed my body. I stopped resisting and allowed myself to get soaked (not like I had a choice), and get thrown about. I let whatever would come, come without tension. I knew that I could handle each moment as it came.
nThe plane was another story. I loaded up on decongestants and hoped for the best. The ride was fine, until the very end when I thought my ears would explode. Again, I stopped resisting the pain, allowed it to be there and prayed they would pop. Although they did not pop until the next morning, I still made it to the fireworks that evening, and survived. One moment at a time was my motto, which carried me through an amazing, nature filled, adventurous vacation with good friends. Now if I could just get better for the weekend, that would be even better, but I know I’ll survive either way.